My heart is heavy for the haughery's and allen's tonight... i followed emily's updates all day long, and could hardly contain the tears that welled up in my eyes when i read of the final decision. my throat hurt, and eyes burned b/c i had to maintain a professional demeanor...i was working at NORLANCO ultrasound in etown today.

oh sometimes i wish i knew what to do. my god give us all grace to know how to care for these families, how to relate to them. my approach is simply to be sincere....

i would have a major temptation to read condolances with remorse- look at these people who are sorry, but still able to move on with their "normal" lives... how dare they try to comfort me...

but god is so gracious and sent his only son to die for sins like one i just described...

the equivalent of breakfast for my blog

i am breaking the unintentional fast from this blog.....



now that adam has done whatever had to be done to my laptop so that it would go on the internet, it will be somewhat easier to keep a log of sorts for my own personal record. of course i dont mind if others participate in my life in this way... life is about relationships. plus i dont get to see people much... with this rigorous schedule and all.



oh man. school has been tough. people have said that this program is the hardest thing they have ever done, but somehow i was like.. sure, it cant be THAT hard. but yeah. its tough. i had a test on gyn pathology today. i seriously never thought i would become an expert in everything pertaining to gyn. ... but it is becoming reality.



ask me anything. hah.



but i did get a letter today stating that i made dean's list for spring semester. i was excited about that ... i originally thought the envelope contained a bill or something.

tonight was captivating.. the bible study. i love those girls. and probably always will. if in the distant future i see one of them at a grocery store i will be ecstatic to see her and eager to catch up, its that pure joy of knowing youre a part of God's family.. something huge, something unstoppable. I delight in seeing how God works in people's lives... especially those who've i have lost contact with for a period of time. (not leaving out the people im closest to... its a joy to walk with them in the faith... )

ok im done here. im tired.